Tuesday Tantrum

My cat went MIA earlier on, and everyone started panicking. Searched for her, everywhere in the house - the balcony, all three rooms, the store room, dining room, hall and even her secret hideouts but Billy was nowhere to be found. Both my parents went out to search for her. And found her wandering at the 11th storey: as if she was lost.

This is so unlike her. Billy's not like that. If she happened to be outside the house, she'll wait patiently outside our door so that we'll open the door for her(We doesn't like our cat to be outside, cause it's dirty and one of our neighbours has two ugly male cats.)

So..... There're two possibility to this bizzare incident.
Either..... My cat's already old and becoming senile.
OR. It's like a protest to all of us, me and family members. We've been too busy, and lazy, that we didn't even give that poor cat, its foods. Not that we didn't.....Just not as frequent as before.

I seriously hope, it's the latter and not the former. 'cause I'd rather my cat show some protest('cause she's afterall, a family to us. She's my little sister!) than being old and senile. My cat's the only sane one in this family. Hahaha. Wth? Nah, it's just that I love my cat very much. And I don't want her to leave me. Not now, not ever.

Peace ☮

Goodbye tiara



Took all this pictures, around noon. - And my fail attempt on modelling(as always)

Here comes disaster.



This is my new hairstyle. Doesn't really make a huge difference as I told the hairdresser to keep the 'length'. Anws,  I just had a haircut about an hour ago. That explain, my damp-like hair.

 So basically.... It's both a farewell and welcome occasion. Well then... Goodbye old tiara, and welcome brand new tiara. As usual, I'll lose my curl after cutting it. But, I love my fringe, though.




Peace & Love ☮
God bless you all.

(:

Hello there!
The title of today's post has probably explain it all. I'm in a jolly mood right now. Why?

Mum bought me another cute dress, that's why! I've always wanted that dress! You'know, the one with the pockets. Jyeah. But..... It kinda looks like...... A mixture of Far East and Bugis. Which, irks me more. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not against those places. It's just that..... It looks so typical. But, I don't mind buying some of the stuff there. Say, accessories, bags, beanie..... Oh yes, speaking of beanie, I'm in need of one! Like, seriously. Haha. Okay, partly because beanie is the IT thing now, but that's not the main reason why I wanna get that goddamn thing. It's because.... I have frequent bad hair days now. Beanie will be my.... so call, "pillar of support" if I were to leave my house with frizzy hair. In simpler words, I won't be all self-conscious about myself. So jyeah. I NEED a beanie!

Anyways.....
I seriously wanna go shopping. I wanna buy some stuff at Forever 21. I just wanna buy harem pants or leggings there. Cause, my wardrobe seems to be flooded with a whole lot of clothes and dresses. I need to at least own some fresh new pants right? That being said, I'm going SHOPPING soon! Most probably, next week. Or perhaps, tomorrow? We shall wait. And see. Hmm?
Oh yes, another thing. I'm in need of a HAIRCUT. YES. It's frustrating. I guess, I won't mind cutting it super short. Haha. No wait. Who am I kiddin? No freaking way. Shorter hair = MORE bad hair days. Trust me. Been there, done that. =)

Okay kiddos.
See ya soon.
God bless.
Peace & Love
☮& ♥

Tangled

God..... Why can't life be more like a fairytale? Eventhough, the storyline are pretty much the same. Say, sad begining, then conflicts arised and so on and so forth...... At least, I know, I will get a happy ending. But, reality....... just don't do justice, do they?

Peace & Love ☮

Lee Cooper

*Clearing my throat*
So............... I got myself a new shoe. I know right? Like, finally?! I'm not really a fan of Lee Cooper, though. To be frank, I've never heard of that brand before. No, seriously. Haha. But, oh well. I hope, it's worth it. This thing cost me a fortune! So, it better be worth every cent of my money! I know, this shoe looks kinda.... boyish. But, oh well....


Oh anyways, it's late november now. Which means..... PARTY time!

Sorry to disappoint you, but I don't party. I'm not saying confidently that I won't do it. 'Cause I'm not too sure myself. I hope, I won't do it, though. I don't wanna get wasted easily. I wanna be..... The 'good cop' in my family. As in, my siblings. All of my brothers are party animals. Especially, my 18 year old brother. Couple of days ago, he went to Azzura or something with his friends. He showed me pictures, and videos of them getting wasted and crap.

Envious? Hell no. -.- I find them rather stupid to be wasting their teenage life just like that. I know, I know. "We must live our lifes to the fullest" But, seriously though. That does not only apply to partying all day long. What about, other aspects? Say, education? Or... I don't know. Couple other things. And, this is what puzzle me the most. If you wanna live your life to the fullest, would you rather be with your friends? Or your family? - the one who loves you the most.

So, to all kids out there.
Take care, okay?
Life's too short, to get wasted.
Embrace the right opportunity, make full use of it. 'cause Life is just....... Priceless. It is worth more than anything in this world!


Once again, take care.
Lots of love.
Peace☮

beautiful disaster

I woke up reluctantly upon hearing my dad's voice. He was nagging endlessly, disturbing my peaceful rest. Dad's not usually like this. I've known my dad forever so I can safely say that there's a hidden agenda. He nagged about all kind of stuff. Mostly, he nagged about the state of the house but there's this one particular thing that CAPTURES my attention - it makes me fuming mad. He nagged about SOCKS. Scolding me and my brothers, about not washing our own socks and how my mum had to do everything by herself. I rolled my eyes, and thought to myself. "Dude, it's already school holiday, for crying out loud!" I mean, seriously. Who needs all those socks, when you can just buy a NEW one? I mean, don't get me wrong. I'm not being a spoil-brat here. But, those socks? Seriously?! You still wanna wear it? Despite knowing that there're holes EVERYWHERE?! Come'on....! Oh and, mum's not at home; she went out to do some groceries shopping for today. It's Thanksgiving day, today. But, thanks to my dad, I've already lost my appetite for the celebration.

Sometimes....
Parents can be such a........... pain in the butt! I'm still very angry with my dad, tho.  But, deep down. I'm kinda glad he did all that. Eventhough, I'm fully aware of the hidden agenda-.-
I'm glad because he makes me realised how sinful I was towards my mum. For dumping everything at her. Not appreaciate what she has done for me. I felt bad. And guilty. Just because I'm a 21st century kid, doesn't mean I have to put aside my responsibility as a daughter, right? And, do you even know why, we have to help our mum do the household chores and everything? Imagine yourself in their shoes. Do you think it's easy to do all that by yourself? So people........... I hope you take this as a lesson learnt. All you gotta do is just stretch out your hands to offer them your help. It's not really that difficult, right people?

Please your mum, before it's too late.
Just like the malay proverb saying; Syurga di tapak kaki ibu. (:


Peace! ☮

Am I still your friend?

Hello, there.
I just wanna share with you people, this amazing song by MIKAH LUFIAHS. The first time I watched his videos, was around 5 months ago. Anyway, I'm pretty sure most of you've heard him before. Especially those from Nanyang Poly. While others might've heard him through facebook and all kinds of social networks, because he's AMAZING!(Y)
But, if you haven't, it'll be great, if you actually heard it from me. 'cause I'm his NUMBER 1 fan.
You know why I like this guy so much? He's funny, talented and most importantly he's REAL. I love his originals so much. I bet, you too, will fall in love with his original songs. Better yet, some of you will even fall in love with Mikah himself. Yes. He's that AWESOME.

So well, here's goes.



Just listen, okay?:D (or, if you're impatient, then just skip to 2:54 -.-)

PEACE! ☮

Better watch out!!!!!!!!!

You better watch out,
Yeah! You better run!
You'know why?
'cause Santa Claus is coming to town!

Haha. I can't wait for Christmas! And, so does my first brother, apparently. Why? His engagement day falls on 25th December too! Lucky fella!

Later,
peace☮

I almost died.....

From the hour you're born you begin to die. But between birth and death there's life.- Shakespeare

I was soundly asleep in the morning - it was peaceful.  The peace was then disrupted by my brother. All of a sudden, my brother began shouting. Everything seemed so blurry just now. Moreover, my brother wrapped a towel around his face, which strangely resembles one of the malay ghosts. I opened my eyes and upon seeing my brother, which I thought was a ghost, I began screaming like nobody's business. I began reciting some prayers and I mentioned God's name a lot of time too. My heart was pumping wildly, I thought I could just die. Then, my brother slowly calm me down. Apparently, after successfully done that, he broke into fits of laughter and kept saying, "You should've seen your face, man!" and "I should have record this!" =.=


Even though, sharing this in my blog, might actually kill me out of humiliation, I seriously urge each and everyone of you out there, to stop doing this kind of pranks. This kind of thing can actually caused somebody's life. One perfect example, would be me! But then again, it takes two to tango. As for this case, I couldn't blame entirely on my brother because I was partly 'responsible' for that near death experience. It is due to the insufficient amount of sleep I had. Anyways.... Please don't do that crazy pranks anymore. You might laugh and think I'm just exaggerating but I am NOT. This thing is serious; people can DIE just because of those pranks!
                                                        

                                  DIE BECAUSE OF SILLY PRANKS?! HOW?

This is because our autonomic nervous system uses the hormone adrenaline(or chemical messengers) to
send signals to various parts of the body to activate the fight-or-flight response - acute stress response. This chemical is toxic in large amounts; it damages the visceral (internal) organs such as our heart! And when our heart is flooded with too much adrenaline, calcium ions will rush into the heart cells and this causes the heart muscle to contract and can't relax. The heart can also go into abnormal rhythms, which are set by the Purkinje fibre, that are not compatible with life and if one of those is triggered, YOU will DIE!


See, how this kind of prank is not doing any of us a favour?  Side note, you can be jailed because of this!-Just kidding! Wait. No. I'm not so sure about that. Haha. Sorry to disappoint you, but I think it's safer if you don't engage yourself in that kind of situation. Okay people:DD


Ps; I am still the same old me. I've not changed into a genius overnight. I did my homeworks and  I found all those information(about "DIE BECAUSE OF SILLY PRANKS?! HOW?")at this website. So do read more, if you're interested. Basically, I just copy paste and rephrase certain words and  summarise it to make it shorter.


Oh another ps;  It's not about "die because of silly pranks". It's about "can a person be scared to death". I changed it to suit my story.


Peace!☮

                        

midnight rush

I hate school holidays because school holidays = FATS & INSOMNIA.

So, this will be a reminder for myself.
Starting tomorrow, I WILL.........

-NOT BE LAZY.
-TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY(especially job interviews. As I've failed to attend most of the job interviews.)
-START STUDYING!('cause 2011 will be the year that will determine my future)
-Wakeup at 8AM!(I've been waking up at 2 pm-.-)
-JOGGING.
-DON'T EAT CRAP FOOD.
-SLEEP EARLY.
-STOP WATCHING LATE NIGHT MOVIES.
And the list goes on..........

Apparently, all this task can't be accomplish in just one solid day. I've to do it one at a time but.... let's keep our fingers crossed and hopefully everything will run smoothly, eh?:D

PEACE!☮

Dedication to Billy

Hey there, Billy.
Your mother must be Silly.
'cause you look like a pussy,
But, you act like a wussy.





☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮

Hey:))
Mum bought me 2 new dress yesterday. And this time, it's not BLACK! She bought two decent looking dress-es for me-white and brown. Aaaah. I've way too many dress-es. For once, I want something different.
Gosh. What is wrong with me? Hahah.
When I was in secondary one, my fashion concept used to be Indie-rock because back then, indie-rock rules the world(like the shawls and stuff). Then, when I was in secondary two, my fashion concept changes to urban-chic/vintage. Early this year, I'm into masculine-feminine 'looks'. Like, the blazer + dress and so on. Then now...... I'm into masculine looks.

Kay peace☮

Vent. It's vent. That word. Is. Vent.
Couple of days, perhaps a week ago, I rant about the things I've forgotten and all. Eversince that day, I've remembered practically everything.
I remembered visitting the flea market when I was younger- the thieves market.
My parents had to pick my brother up from school and afterwards we would all head our way towards the thieves market. *Side note, my brother used to school at Madrasah Al-Junied(one of the few religious school for Islam in Singapore).
Aaaah. I missed that place. My parents have stopped bringing us there when my brother decided to go to secular school instead. I've always dreamt about that flea market and the cute barbie dolls there. Damn.... I would love to go there one day, together with my family. I want to be able to say this, "Just like old times, man". Hah, I remembered consistently question myself, "where the hell is that place?" I guess, I can finally stop asking, eh? Now that, I've remembered every single details.

Frankly speaking, I'd like to write a whole full page about all this nostalgic moments. But, I'm tired. And lack of inspiration to write as well. I want to write something that will bring back those nostagic moments, so that one day, if I were to read this blog from my very first post, I can still get this weird flashback moments. Aaah. I know, I'm writing crap these days. More grammar mistakes, and everything. But, you know what? It's okay. I want to inspire many people one day. And, I will. I've made up my mind. I want to write my own biography. Go ahead, and laugh as you wish. This is only the beginning, my people. The ending? The ending will be better than what you expected. You just have to wait.

Parcel

After browsing through the photo album, I felt something. Something different. Something that comes from deep within me. Something that shouts, "I missed the old me!".

Back then, I used to resent myself, when my parents scolded me(because I wet my bed and etc). I never understood why they did that and why they punished me. So I keep on praying, hoping one day, I'll finally understand the reasons. I'll pray profusely, hoping one day, I can finally stop my parents from scolding me. Little did I know, new obstacles and new problems arised each day. I was confused. "Why are the problems getting bigger and bigger?" "Why am I making mistakes?" I thought, if I grow up faster, all the problems will disappear into thin air. But. I was wrong. I keep making mistakes unknowingly. Without fail, I keep on praying, hoping all of these will end by the time I grow up.

And now..... I've finally understood the reasons. The reasons why my parents scolded me- they were afraid I might repeat the same mistakes again. In fact, reasons why any parents scolded their kids is purely because of that. I'd do the same too, because I don't want my kid to end up being a spoilt brat or become a laughing stock for making such mistakes when they grow up. And now. I've finally realised, making mistakes is part and parcel of life. It's inevitable. Each and everyone of us, had to go through this, whether we like or not. I might have some problems now, such as frequent breakouts, heartbreaks, schools and so on, but it's okay. I'm a strong person.

“The past is behind, learn from it.
The future is ahead, prepare for it.

The present is here, live it.”

Peace☮

Red beans

Eating red beans, is like forcing myself to eat Durians. And..... I ate it. Just now. For the very first time. And that will also be my last. Screw you! Why on earth would anyone invent such a food like you?! You're hardly edible for human consumption! GOD!

Reason why I had to force myself to indulge in such a food like you because my mum was too busy and she didn't cook anything today. I was very hungry. I thought I could even die due to starvation but something caught my eyes. I saw this stack of red beans cans in the kitchen's cabinet. I've never eaten red beans before. Honestly speaking, I find it rather 'disgusting'.-At this point of time, most of you might have concluded that I am a very rude person who doesn't even know how to appreciate foods. But. I beg to differ.

I strongly disagree that I'm the type of person who doesn't appreciate food because I do appreciate it. A. Lot. That is why, I've always been very picky with what I ate. A food.... Is like a masterpiece of Art. It captures people's attention with the end result. The reasons are as obvious as it seems- everything started with just a plain of white canvas. Or for this case, simple ingredients. What matters the most is how you present it, how you make it different from any other masterpiece....  Aaaah. And red beans? I don't know.


I think reason why I decided to consume it because I was super hungry and the thought of eating red beans seemed rather 'appealing'. At this point of time, I was confused between fantasy and reality. When you're hungry, anything will appear to be delicious. Somehow, my stomach manipulates my brain into thinking that the red beans were delicious. Soon, red beans conquered my mind. I kept thinking about how delicious it would be. And before I came to realise, I've already swallowed about 5 spoonful of red beans. I seriously don't have the right vocabs to describes how I felt just now. This red beans.... Are killing me. Literally. It's DISGUSTING. Damn.... No way in hell, am I going to eat red beans again.

Peace then.
☮

THANK GOD :D

Okay....
The thirst hunt are finally over. Jyeah. I think I exaggerated a lot yesterday. I experienced a short term Polydipsia. This is due to the hot climate, not drinking enough and yes eating salty food.

Let me refresh your memory. I've been taking Sport Events Management for the last 3 days and this coming Monday will be my last day in Republic Polytechnic. It's a 5 day course and our participation will be reflected in our School Graduation Certificate upon graduating and performace will be graded based on assessment criteria set by the polytechnic.

Moreover, this AEMS grade can then be used as additional consideration by higher institution during the Joint Polytechnic Special Admission Exercise and for Direct Polytechnic Admission. Personally, I think Rp is a very good institution for learning.
Condusive environment + only 25 students per class=study better.
And, kudos for Rp's hospitality. Such as, providing us with the food and beverages also the laptops, markers and mahjong papers for us to do our presentation(proposal).
The foods were delicious! The only complain, some of it were OILY = as a result, more breakouts for me D': and thirst hunting.

Plus point, Rp is very near to where I am staying. As my house is situated at Woodland/Marsiling, I chose to walk there rather than taking the transport = SAVE $$. ;D hee.
So.... Why am I complaining? The weather are unseasonably hot. And most of you will know this factor-almost all the places in Rp are air-conditioned. Like, the canteen(the one situated at W4 and so on.) Basically, my body's not used to the environment change. (Going in and out.)
Other than that, REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC rules the world! So, if you want to pursue your education at tertiary level, I urge you to choose RP as your number one choice. Trust me, RP's the best.

Peace and love.
☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥
xoxo.

*GASPS*

I think I might suffer from Polydipsia! Most of you will think that this is a bad thing;ANY diseases/illnesses is a Bad disease/illness. But, I don't know.... This disease seems 'better' as compared to diabetes right? I don't want to have Diabetes. I'm still very young. And I seldom eat sweet stuff. D':
On the bright side..... The causes for this particular illness(Polydipsia) 'suit' me as it states; "Polydipsia is the termed used to describe an abnormal excessive thirsty feeling. Thirst is an urge to drink and drinking lots of water is recommended to maintain health."
And. YES. I have this strong urge to drink a lot of water because I am constantly THIRSTY. I know most of you might wonder why does drinking a lot of water is a bad thing. Here's the reason why; "There is a point where the extreme thirst urge may go a bit to far.  An increased thirst beyond healthy maintenance takes you into the realm of a symptom for an underlying disease, psychological issue or an environmental condition"

There are many reasons that causes this disease.
They are: Fever, Burns, Diabetes, Liver or heart or kidney failure, eating disorder, hot & dry climate, salty or spicy meal, not drinking enough water, excessive loss of water and salt and many more!
Oh my god.... I don't wanna talk anymore. I hate GOOGLE. Sometimes, what you found on Google pisses you off more than it 'helps' you. I should not Google anymore. *cross my heart*



Peace!
☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥

I think..... I just died

I don't know why I'm like dehydrated nowadays... I am constantly THIRSTY. I think, I lack of minerals. But, I've already replenished my thirst by drinking A LOT of mineral water. Gahh............ Something is wrong with me.... WHY DO I FEEL THIRSTY ALL THE TIME?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Kay peace!
Much love from me to.....MYSELF.
☮& ♥

BROMANCE

I take back my words...
I'M IN LOVE WITH RP ONCE AGAIN! YAY. Kay. Full stop. No elaboration.

Erm.....
Here's something I'd like to share with yall. My target audience will be the young and young at hearts. Trust me, this video is super funny! Not only that, you will also get to see JAY PARK(former 2PM)! I know right?! Awesome much?! Jyeahhh! <3







Kay. Till then.
Peace and love.
☮ & ♥


Ps; I don't even know who's this Jay Park guy 'cause I'm so not one of those KPOP fan. So..... I did a little research, out of curiousity 'cause I saw the comments below and many of them was like going gaga and Big F about Jay Park appearing in that video.
Anw, I googled Jay Park's name and the wikipedia told me everything :))

A day like this

I was more than fortunate to be able to wake up at around 8 plus in the morning TODAY! You know why?! I have CLASS today at RP. I'm taking Sport and Event Management course for 5 days. I repeat, 5 DAYS! Haha. No. I'm SERIOUS.

The course was actually pretty fun and all, but it's DAMN challenging and I hate it! And, I believe most of you will know this by now..... I hate doing POWERPOINT slides. Imagine, every now and then, you have to do presentation. Like, WTH? Doing research and all was never my forte.

Anyways,
I went to town with my dearest mum yesterday.

To support my brother's company, Subaru. Jyeah. He's a technician there

I wore this dress which my dearest mum just bought it for me YESTERDAY.^^ Hee.

I can never be a model.......
I don't even know how to pose! Haha.

Okay people.
I need to get some rest. Tomorrow gonna be a tedious school day for me.
Peace.
Much love....
☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥

Yes!
After doing some research, I've finally remembered the name of the show I used to watch, around early this year.
Ex-list! Yay!
So far, I've remembered two things-the malay poetry and this. I just need to remember what's that freaking word.
Oh by the way, I've finished watching Jumanji. Like, FINALLY. Haha. I never had the chance to finish watching it.
Oh and....
Mum bought me a new dress. And, it's BLACK. Again.-.-

Okay. Peace!
☮♥☮♥☮♥☮♥

One Last Chance

I am...................

Sad. Angry. Rude. Hot-tempered. Stupid.
Dumb. Pessimistic. Egoistic. Hopeless. Tired.
Useless. Insensitive. Stubborn. Spoil-brat.

These are some words to describe my emotion and anything related to myself right now.
Problems after problems arised in my life. I felt bad. AND horrible. Why am I always causing troublems? 2010 is so not my year, buddy. So many BAD things going on in my life. Just look at me! I'm in a total mess! I treat people badly. And.... I'm sick and tired of being that mean girl.

And you know what?
Maybe.................
Just maybe......................
I am..............SORRY?
Sorry for all that ill-treatments I gave to those poor teachers and few other nameless and innocent souls. I really want to start again.
Question is..... Will they give me that chance?


Peace☮♥

Puzzled.

It's nearing 2a.m in the morning, and I'm still wide awake. There's something bugging me. And, no. Not really because of that late night movies, which I created every midnight and pretty addicted by it-okay. It does play a part but it does NOT play a MAJOR role in this situation.

So here's the deal..... I'm becoming forgetful. Not that it matters, actually. Wait. I take back those words, 'cause it does. I hate being forgetful. It makes me feel..... unease. It makes me try so hard to remember what I forget. It's like...... 'I remembered that I forget about this particular thing, I just don't remember what it is.' that kind of thing, you know? Erm.... Are you following? I know, that sentence is grammatically unsound, but trust me, it ain't easy explaining at all. But.... That's exactly how I feel. Urgh. This is stupid.

I forget some stuff I used to say.... Like favourite words. Something I should remember. Hey. Wait. I remembered one stuff. A two words malay poetry which I created, out of anger. It's kinda 'chim'. But. I don't know how to finish it. "Ketidakadilan membelenggu....." So. Yay. Writing does help a lot. So. I remembered one thing. Okay. I need to remember few other things. You see. I know I forget about something, I just don't remember what's that thing call or whatever(similar grammatically unsound sentence). It's like..... A missing piece of jig-saw puzzle. I've already figured out most of the pieces, but then again. What's the use of all that when I still couldn't find that one missing piece. The picture makes no sense at all. It's like painting Monalisa but with no face. Okay. That sentence is way off.

Anyways..... There's this word.... Not my favourite word. But, it's just frustrating to actually forget something. I know the definition of that particular word but I forget what's that word. I used it a lot when I was in a relationship. Not literally the word. It's like..... You're having a bad day then you just dump it at someone innocent. What's that word? "I'm sorry... I (insert blank) my anger at you. Ahh. Crap. This will take forever.

You know what.
I'll get back to you tomorrow. Or rather...One day. When I've finally figured out what's that word and a few other things that I forget.

Okay. Peace. ☮

Start of the week

Tomorrow's gonna feel like Monday. How ironic when my first day of school is also my last day of school. And, I hate this 'first day of school' feeling. I can't possibly get rid of this feeling, can I? Ahhh! Damn! I hate this freaking feeling!
Hopefully, my form teacher won't be naggy about me not coming for school this past few days. And, hopefully I won't be all left out about some stuff, like.... I don't know. New gossips or whatever. Though, I do know about some stuff that is quite sensitive. Which, I won't write about it here 'cause like I said just now, that stuff is kinda SENSITIVE. As a matter of fact..... It's kinda disheartening how that kind of stuff can actually happened especially to someone whom I actually care. Hopefully, that someone is okay. As much as I'd like to believe that, I know that someone is in need of a crying shoulder. And, I'll be there tomorrow, okay buddy. Just..... Hang in there.

Alright.
Peace and love. ☮♥

Summer

Hey.
Jyeah.... I guess I was too caught up with my own things, eh? I hadn't been coming school lately.
I am still REQUIRED to go to school though. Pretty much, I spent my time well by watching videos and sleep and eat and the list goes on. I mean, come on. What's the point of going to school when you've already gotten all your results right? And trust me, the last thing you wanna go will be Post-exam activities. Anyways, pretty much it feels like school holidays. Of cause, the last day of school will be this coming Thursday but who cares? I'll only be coming to school on the last day of school. That's the ONLY day you should be coming because that's when you get your report book and hugs from everyone.

Aaaaah. It feels like summer. And, I'm gonna job hunt tomorrow:D
Okay folks.
See you on Monday.
Peace☮

Craig David

Yay me.
I couldn't sleep! Having sleeping difficulties is fun, huh? Righttttt! But, I'm not tired. Reasons why people sleep is either because they are tired or because they wanna go dreamland- yes. That place. Where all those unfulfilled dreams became a reality.
So..... After doing some research about insomnia(you guys would most probably remember this as Craig David's song, insomnia. You know, that gay song? U'uh. That one:)) I know exactly why I have insomnia. No. Not because of stress or depression. Nor is it because of the changes in sleep environment. It is actually......Because I am NOT tired and I'm already in my own dreamland, watching episodes after episodes of Wizards of Waverly Place.

Anyways..... Here's something to REFRESH your memories of how GAY this INSOMNIA song is.
Don't get me wrong though, I love CRAIG DAVID. But, come'on....Insomnia is so gay dude.

So, here's the chorus by the way.
Insomnia by Craig David

"Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more

Oh i stay up til you're next to me

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah "

Ahh ahh ahh~ Ahhh ahh ahh~-HAHAHHAHA. damn. That part always cracks me up. hahah.

Okay till then.
 PEACE.☮

                  "I wanna be a wizard"

GREATNESS

I'm feeling lost. Yeah. Lost. Lost with no sense of direction. Each and everyone of us, have our own ultimate goal. And mine is to pass my GCEO level examination with a good aggregate that could qualify me for one of the 5 polytechnics in Singapore. But....... I don't know. Yea. Being able to qualify for polytechnic has been my dream eversince I was in secondary one. Thing is, I'm not sure where to go NEXT(if let's say I do qualify for polytechnic). I've looked through the courses in ALL the polytechnic. Mainly, there's Engineering school, Business school, Chemical and Life sciences school and etc. And, nothing appeals to me! How could you do something that you're not interested in?! Especially, for job-wise. I'll definitely suffer right? I really want to pursue something that I'm interested in. I'm sure all you heard of this- it doesn't feel like work when you enjoys what you do. Of cause, I wish that could happen to me.

Aaaaah. Even though, secondary school life might sucks, but I'm glad I'm still a secondary school kid. The pressure's level is 5 times lesser than Polytechnic's life. No. I'm not going to change my plan. I'll still stick with it. And then afterwards............. I will just let nature take its course.




"Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them."
-William Shakespeare

PEACE! ☮

I know, I know.

So.....
Not going to school today, wasn't really a bad idea.
Why? Results' day today.
Yes. I screw up a lot! I'm seriously crossing my fingers right now, hoping I could at least pass my English!
English is damn IMPORTANT man!
Of cause.. I also hope I pass my emath paper. Since I screw up my paper 2. D':

Aaaaaaah.
So far, I've already know two results. MALAY and SOCIAL STUDIES.
My friend texted me telling me my marks for SS. Thank god. I get 43/50:DD And my friend told me I was the highest in class.
Now, for the second language paper.......
I'm super duper disappointed. For the friggin first time, I get a C effing 5 for my second language paper! I felt insulted. I felt ASHAMED. Thank god I didn't turn up for school today. If not...... I'd definitely be a laughing stock.

Aaaaaaaah.
Let's just PRAY tomorrow will be a better day for me, okay:DD

PEACE yo.☮

Not again

Ahh. Yes.
I'm not going to school tomorrow.
Honestly, I've lost count. Lost count of the number of days I fail to attend for school. Let's not talk about DAYS, let's just take WEDNESDAYS for instance. Hahah. There're way too many WednesdayS I've skipped/ fail to attend this year. But, I've my reason. Tomorrow? I'm just lazy. And can't be bothered to know. To know my results. Why bother? When you've already know? When you've already know the outcomes or for this case, the results?
Nah...... Frankly speaking, I'm actually SCARED to know the result...... Part of me, was praying endlessly to get at least a PASS for most of my subjects..... Part of me...... Already knew what I'd get for most of the subjects; I surrendered myself to the bitterness of failure. You know what? If worst comes to worst...... I'd still accept it with a open heart. But, desperate time calls for desperate measures. I need to do something! Aaaaaaaaaaah. I'm SCARED. I'm TERRIFIED. I'm.......... HORRIFIED!

Alright.
Till then, I guess?
Peace☮

Sammy

My..........
I think............
I'm in love..........................!
With?
Samuel Rizal!!!!!!!!

Goddddddddd.
Can you be nice to me this time round? Please for the love of god, let the two of us be together, despite the age gaps. AAAAAAAAAAAH. I'm so in love with him!
I swear........ I will marry a guy who looks EXACTLY like him. With the exception of my ex, S, of cause. Aaaaah. I'm going nuts right now..!
Hopefully, I can meet him in person one day.

Okay.
Peace!☮

Job Hunting

Today's finally the ending of my nightmare episodes. EXAM ARE FINALLY OVER! It was Art paper just now. My painting still sucks but.... I've improved A LOT okay! I seriously hope Mr J will be lenient and give me at least grade C.:))
Anyway..... I went for a job hunting just now. My first stop was North Point. One word-Disappointed. The moment I stepped into the _____ shop the sale girl greeted me, thinking I was going to buy some stuff there. So, I made my way towards her and politely asked her, ''Excuse me, erm.... May I know if there's any vacancy here?'' And she quickly said NO. Her manager was there and asked me, ''sorry? what did you say again?'' And I told him I'd like to work there. He told me they needed man power during late November and December and asked me to come again. I said, ''okay.'' and went off.  The sale girl was sucha *****. I don't know. Somehow or another, I think she's afraid of competition. Anyway...... I'm so not going to work there.

So..... My second job hunting was...... Cwp. Hahaha. I should've just go there in the first place. So, I went to the same shop, ____ and went straight to the counter. The manager asked me a lot of questions and afterwards asked me to write down my particulars on a piece of paper. And told me he'll contact me.  I seriously hope HE WILL. 'cause I really like the environment there! If not..... then, I guess I have to look elsewhere. I don't know why, of all shops, I chose this particular shop, ___ . No. I don't like that shop. I don't shop for stuff there but for job-wise, it's actually pretty cool.

Oh and.... I also have my eyes on Cotton On. Thing is.... I feel inferior to work there. Why? I'm just a kid, yo! Most of them who works there are Poly/ITE students. So..... Nehh.

Okay,
Peace YO!☮
:DD

From Sengau to Simpson and Stretch Mark

I hate making conversation with people right now. Why? Because of my voice. Even my friends started making fun of my new voice.-Sengau. And... It's really hard to make a conversation with anyone without being mock at. But oh well. That's life. Now.... My voice changes to Mrs Simpsons' voice. You know the one with.... I really don't know how to describe her voice. Watch Simpsons and just listen to his wife's voice and you will have a rough idea how my voice sounds like.

Oh and....
I discovered something else too!
Stretch mark!
If you people think only PREGNANT women get stretch marks then you're dead wrong. I'm not pregnant. But I have stretch marks.
Where? My arm.
Why? Because of FATS. I don't know. Generally, only fat people have stretch marks. Apparently, I am one now. Lucky for me, it's not that visible and there's only a few of it. But still........ AAAAAAAAAAAH!

I AM FAT.... :'(
☮

F(square) Fever and Flu

Hi.
I'm feeling rather feverish right now. I can't believe I'm actually feeling sick as my immune system is quite good. But, eversince the start of examination, I've been showing symptoms of sickness like sneezing. I think it's because of the exam papers. I'll start sneezing the moment I started flipping the paper.
But today..... Was different than usual. I have runny nose. Guess what? It was Emath paper 2. And yes.... I sneezed at any random point of that 2hour period. And started sniffing due to that annoying mucus.  As a result, I felt totally horrible. Oh and, did I mention that my voice sounds different. More husky. I think it's because of what I ate yesterday. My mum cooked this....I have no idea what it was. So.... I ate two. I tried the first one and it was horrible. I couldn't finish it. You know why? It was DAMN freaking oily. It was so damn oily, that I could even feel it in my throat. I tried the second one, as I thought it would taste slightly better. But to my deepest disappointment, it was even worse than the first. I threw it away the moment I had my first bite.
Aaaaaaaaaah. I felt like shit.
By the way.....
I screw up most of my papers. Such as..... Geography, Malay, English Paper 1, Physic(BIG TIME) and Math paper 2. Man.... The thoughts of me failing my overall are kinda disheartening. And I only have myself to be blame 'cause I didn't study that much. And right now, I kinda regret it-regret for not putting the exact amount of efforts I should've put in my studies. But oh well. Bygones bygones. I'll take this as a lesson learnt. I hope, you too, will take this as a lesson learnt. Sometimes.... Last minute preparation(for education-wise) will lead to your biggest downfall. You might be lucky once, but you'll never know when it will start to affect you. I was lucky once, during CA2. I did very well for most of the papers. But right now..... It has started to affect me; I need to do a lot of catching up and I realised that one day is not enough to sum up what I've learnt for the past 9 months.

Okay then.
Goodnight!
Love you.

PS; I didn't go out on 10.10.10. Most of you will know this. 10 is my FAVOURITE number. I've been waiting for this date to come eversince I was in seconday one. But, like the malay proverb saying, "Manusia merancang tetapi Tuhan yang menentukan."

Okay.
PEACE!☮

DAMN IT

I need to spill it out. I'm addicted to GG!
Wait.... I've always been. I read the book back when I was in Secondary 1. I've watch couple of the episodes and concluded that the drama sucks and that the book ROCKS.
I take back my words; the drama rocks just as much as the book. I watched episodes after episodes in just one solid day! And.... This definitely affects me. I even neglected Daily Booth. Not only that, it also makes me lose my focus and I couldn't revise my work!
If GG is a drug...... I think I might die due to overdose.
I watch too much of it.
The remedy for this addiction?
Simple. In order to stop this addiction, I gotta finish ALL the episodes. Yes..... All the way till season 4.
Thing is, NOTHING in this world is as SIMPLE as it seems.
One episode is about 42 minutes. In one season, there are about 25 episodes. So..... 25(4)=100 Afterwards..... Take 100(42)=4200. Convert this to time.
See. I have exams to think of. I couldn't possibly be wasting my time on this, or could I?
Aaaaaaaaah.
Help???? Anyone?
Obviously nobody will.
Why? I set this blog as private remember?
Aaaaah.
Peace.☮
DDD':

empty

Right now.....
It feels so weird. This feeling..... Is so......Alien to me.....
Fragmented thoughts raced through my mind as I recollected what I've done in the past. It pains me to realise all the bad things I had done. I exhaled a deep sigh couple of times and question myself, ''What is happening to me?'' I don't know..... I ponder for awhile..... And finally. I know what's wrong. Emptiness. Yes. I feel empty right now.
Maybe..... It's depression..... GOD..... I need you with me at this point of time....
To tell you the truth, I'm giving up-resigning myself to the bitterness of unfulfilled dream. I tried to focus and revise my work.... But.... Nothing goes inside this empty head.
Screw life............

☮

She's gone when I need her the most.....

Hey.
I felt miserable right now......
I'm losing another friend. A best friend. We used to be so close. We used to hold hands when we were like in 4th grade.
But now......
It will just be a sweet memories that will permanently etched in my mind.
Aaaaah.....
She has left for Canada just now. At 8am. It's been like years since the last time I saw her. Oh my.....I missed her so badly right now....
Aaaah. She's gone.... When I need her the most.....DD:

Peace.........☮☮☮☮☮

Hello:DD
Good night!☮

Yes? Why?

Yes.....I wanna change.
Why? 'cause I wanna be a better person in future. And I want to be able to guide my future children, not just academic wise, but also in religious issue.
I'm so sinful to GOD. I used to be a self proclaimed 'free thinker'. I don't really believe in the existence of God and everything back then. Moreover, I was also ASHAMED of my religion-Islam. AND, I'm TRULY sorry for all that. Now, I seriously wanna turn over a new leaf even if it meant going back to square one. Frankly, I wasn't built up well as a Muslim. Of cause, I used to attend the religious class and etc but that was like, what? 7? 8? 9? 10 years old? I don't know. And.......I'm truly ashamed of myself..... Why? I think I'm the only kid-my age- who still haven't 'qatam' the al-quran. Not only that, I don't really know that much about Islam.
So erm............
I wanna share with yall this video.....
This song is a legend. When I was younger, I used to memorise this song and sang it all day long.:DD



OKAY,
PEACE.☮

Hehehe. I have a new cup for my guilty pleasure-coffee.
The cup's pretty cheap actually so no biggy. Hahah. IT'S SUPER CHEAP.
☮

the only exception

It's nearing 2 a.m and here I am still WIDE awake.
Yes...... While the rest of my family members were already immersed in their own fantasy and bullshit dreams, I am STILL wide awake! (Hmm... Why am I always the only exception? Maybe.....I am.... A-D-O-P-.....)Gahh. I'm so scared of FRIDAY- the FIRST paper. Or rather first two papers. Or rather THE START OF EOY  EXAMS!
I totally forgot how I studied, or rather MEMORISED my social studies essays! It's stupid how I'm having so much DIFFICULTIES in memorising that damn essays this time round.

Okay.
NIGHT.
I need to have some rest..........DD:

Peace ☮

HOME ALONE

Jyeah.
Didn't attend school today.....-DEAD TIRED man.....
Alright. So here's a reminder for me. Need to do some house-keeping....-.-
Afterwards...... PLEASE START DOING SOME REVISION! For Social Studies!!!!!!!
And yes...... COMPLETE MY unfinished essay.
Mental breakdown baby.....
Urgh.
Talk to you later.
'cause now.... I need to take a shower. Heh.:))
Peace☮

cookies anyone?

Okay....... It's strange how I can be so 'cool' and 'compose' despite knowing the fact that EXAM is just a matter of THREE MORE DAYS. Please. Start. Panicking. You IDIOT!
I've tried my very best to do my homeworks but...... I don't know, friend..... I succumb to exhaustion easily!

Anyways.......
Here's an OLD picture of me. Jyeap. Before I cut my bloody hair.....

Okay then.!
TIME TO STUDY!-hell NO! I'm going to bed!:))) Heh.
NIGHT!
Peace☮

MS SWAN

Okay.....This post is a dedication to MS SWAN.
Why? 'Cause I love Ms Swan, that's why :DD

Awww. We are twin! We look so SIMILAR.
I truly adore Ms Swan.....
Obviously, I didn't like her the first time I watched her show but then again......
We shouldn't judge a book by its cover right?
Alright......
I wanna booth 'bout this in just a minute.
Good day everyone:))
PEACE☮

ADDICTIVE

Okay......
I'm so addicted to Daily Booth right now.
Hahah. It's FUN! And, I've got 12 people following me NOW:D
YAY ME:))
☮

Take back my words

I love DAILYBOOTH! And yes..... I can smile NOW:))))
Why? I've finally figure out how the thing works:))
Yaye:)
And..... I've 5 followers:)
Hahah. Big deal!
But, if you were to read the earlier post, I only have ONE follower. So, it rocks okay(Y)
Oh and, I managed to convince two of my friends to join this goddamn thing.
Yay ME!

Peace yo!☮

Booth Daily

Okay. Okay.
I've landed myself at DailyBooth. And it felt so weird. It's like I'm the only asian there! And..... I only have ONE-I repeat ONE!- follower! D: How pathetic!-.-
I've tried convincing my friends though, about creating an account there. But, wth.... I don't know. They don't seem to be interested in it..... In fact, I've lost my interest too. In Dailybooth. Most of the users are white people from countries like USA, UK etc..... Of cause, I love WHITE PEOPLE. But, it became a major turn off when many of the cute guys there are purely GAYS, Fml.
Oh and, I can't delete the goddamn thing!
Oh well. FML.

Peace YO!☮

Woohoo Wednesday

Today is....................WEDNESDAY! And I'm feeling awesome!

I know, I know..... I've mentioned this in the earlier post about how much I hated Wednesday, but today....... Is an exception. I told my mum I was going to school late just now, because of the amount of homeworks I had the day before. Of cause, I told her I was going to finish it. But, hell. I couldn't even care less about it.
So, targeting at around 9a.m to get the hell out of my house, I managed to reach school around 9:50a.m. And, guess what?! I'm a genius!-My school have this new late-comers system where we need to, erm, scan through our ez-link card on this scanner thing. In simpler words, it will be recorded and if we happened to be late more than three times, we need to go for detention. The objective of this scanner thing is to make sure the late-comers served their punishment and somehow make them feel remorseful about being late.-?? haha.
So, Genius ME didn't scan through my ez-link card. I won't tell you how I did it, though.
Anyways, MAIN reason why I chose 9 a.m to get out of my house is because of english lesson-which ends at 9:40a.m. I owed my english teacher a heck lot of homeworks. The last thing I want to hear from her is her endless nagging.-.-

Okay Alright.
Peace☮

Thanks. For making me fail. :D

I am blogging to express my deepest disappointment regarding this one particular malay teacher name M. I know I'm going to fail my malay oral the moment I saw her making her way towards the appointed seat. So, cut the story short, I screw up my malay oral. Which is so UNLIKE me. Trust me, I am good at conversation, I even taught an old friend of mine how to converse good malay. He even scored DISTINCTION for O level oral examination.
You know, I tried to put my anger, hatred and burning ego aside and just get the thing done and over with. Upon finishing reading the passage, she then asked me the conversation topic,
''Pernahkah awak melakukan kerja kemasyarakatan? Nyatakan pengalaman awak.''

I thought for awhile and finally after having the script well rehearsed in my head, I started my sentence with this,
''Saya rasa sebagai pelajar ya, kita sudah pun terdedah dengan kerja-kerja kemasyarakatan.....''


Then, I stopped. 'cause I looked at her ****** face. And...... she said this,
''Saya ulangi soalan itu sekali lagi........ Pernah kah...........''

And this is what pisses me off.-
''Okay. Sebelum itu, awak tahu tidak apa maknanya kemasyarakatan?''


The word 'fuck' spontaneously came out of my mouth upon hearing that.  I felt so insulted! I stood up and said, ''aaaah. Buat bodoh ah!'' before making my way out. I clenched my fist tight and marched towards the open door.

I tear up a bit, and felt horrible.-TOWARDS myself. I know I am good at it, but I screw up just because I hated that **** teacher. And then I smiled and said to myself, ''it's okay.'' 'cause I know I'm good at it and could have scored distinction if it was a different teacher. I scored 38/40 the last time round and was the highest in class. So, SCREW YOU, M!

Kay peace. ☮

L♥VE

Man......(And again. The title has no relevant to what I'm going to say.)
I've been slacking this past few days. Eversince school reopen(after the 1 week sept hols). I did pay attention. 'Cause I am attentive in class. Wait. I've always been attentive in class. But, I have not been doing any homeworks SO FAR. No. Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining nor am I saying the teachers didn't do their job 'cause they didn't give any homeworks. As a matter of fact, they DID give us assignments to do at home. LOTS OF THEM.

Gahhh. I felt so worn out this past few days. Some might say, I 'lepak'(slack with friends), but trust me people I have stop 'lepak-ing'(slacking) eversince I was in my secondary two days. And this year, is somehow like the first time I went home STRAIGHT after school. Of cause, I skipped my cca(eversince the start of Ramadhan) 'cause sometimes, I find Cca pointless. And, I feel that Cca is like an obstacle for all the students to excel too. My Cca ends at 6:30pm(wait no. It usually ends later than that. At about 6:40+). Which means...... I will reach home at around nearing 8, depending on the situation. It will be earlier though, if I were to aboard the train. But then again, 6:40+pm means peak hour.(I don't think so I need to elaborate further, do I?).

So...........
Having said all that.............
I have come to a conclusion.
The problem is NOT because of the amount of homeworks given.
Nor. Is it about my Cca.
All along, the problem lies in me.
I'm THE cause of all this problems.
I'm just PLAIN LAZY.

With that,
I shall shut up for now.
Goodnight ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
L ♥VE yall.
Peace aye. ☮

Open House

I'm so worn out therefore I won't elaborate that much about today. So, cliched this might sound, but let's the pictures do the talking, shall we?

The excitement



The Anak Jantan

The Black-Extra


The 'Boi' menjeng.

The 3 Abdul...

The Anak-daras(Haha. As if!)

The Cute Family.




The Pedo-Kidnappers....



I POSED FOR SO LONG, AND REALISED THAT THE 'BOI MENJENG' DIDN'T SNAP MY PHOTO, HE ACCIDENTALLY PRESSED VIDEO-.- Background voice, was my brother. Haha. Idiot.


Boi Menjhy


Alright Alright.
That's all. There're many other pictures though, but these are my personal favourite.
Okay then.
☮☮Peace☮☮
Love you;)

Endless cries

Yesterday's night- 17th of September- my house was filled with cries of sorrow and regrets. My cries for pity was being ignored. My knees were already on the ground, begging for mercy, and again, it was to no avail. Knowing too well, the outcomes of my past mistakes, I stood there and prayed profusely........

☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮

My abs of flabs

There's a couple of things you

should know about me.


I'm NOT good at judging people.


I like playing soccer.


I miss track and field so damn freaking much!


BUT THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING YOU SHOULD KNOW ABOUT ME!

I am, undeniably, getting FATTER and fatter every single freaking day!-I thought it was some kind of genetic problem or some sort. But, it is NOT. All my family members have well built body and super healthy looking. All of THEM!(note: I said 'them'and not 'us'). So, since I'm like the only exception in the family..... Negative thoughts began to crowd my mind.
I think........... I might be Adopted!

Hmmm.......
My 'real' parents must be obese and have a fat ass!
They might be lazy too.
I've this hunch, they like to take afternoon naps.


But then again.... No.....
I'm really NOT adopted.
I'm really ONE OF THEM. But, I'm just not as lucky as them...
Looking at my lovely brothers, I can't help casting covetous eyes on their body.
Toned body, beautiful abs..... They have it all, but I don't!
God............. I really want that abs.....
Apparently, every single one of us have abs.
But....
I am categorised under different type of abs.
And...... It's call abs of flabs.......D:


Peace yo.☮

Alright, alright.
I didn't attend school today, or rather yesterday. I woke up kinda late. Not really, actually. I woke up around 6:20am and if I were to rush up and everything, I would still reach school on time. But, I was dead tired and my whole body was aching damn badly. Plus, there are still a number of homeworks still undone.

And the homeworks......still remain undone. Haha. I thought of doing my english homework but there were no ideas flowing inside my head! Come'on. I need to write a story about generation gaps, PEOPLE. And, my friend told me, there's another english essay(about Colours. I know, wth?). So, I end up with two essays! Damn it.

I saw my favourite pencil on top,
I saw it danced beautifully when I give it a call.
But then it stopped,
And I realised what I've written doesn't make sense at all.



Side note;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZWANI!


I know, I know. Unglam photos. But, I don't care!

Peace!☮

HellHoleOfBoredom

God damn it.

My throat is like killing me.... I think it's because of Shisha-SCREW you boys once again. I had been coughing in class and the coughing doesn't just stop there. I continued huffing bacteria all the way home.
Anyways, school wasn't really a good start either and somehow I regretted going to school today. There are way too many homeworks! As usual, I went back home straight after school ended. And upon reaching home and had afternoon shower and etc, I'd play my guitar for awhile before finally taking an afternoon nap. It has always been the same routine and I know it's unhealthy for both education and health-wise. You know why? Upon waking up from that dreadful afternoon nap, I'd feel more tired than I supposed to be. If you realised, you will always have some trouble sleeping at night when you took afternoon naps. This is a Vicious Cycle of afternoon naps. 'cause when you can't sleep at night, you will feel very tired in the afternoon. And the cycle repeats.

And right now, I have a mental breakdown..... I can't think. I mean, I still can(obviously) but I don't know, it's like I'm not in my study mood that kind of stuff. Initially, I had planned to finish up whatever homeworks I have at night but I'm so damn tired. You know, personally I think homeworks are just an obstacle and barrier for all the students to EXCEL in life. You know why? This is because of homeworks, students have NO time to revise at all.-Correct me if I'm wrong. And as for me, I think the only time I will start revising will be during exam periods or nearing exam period. It's not really because I'm a last minute kind of person- but it is true though ;)- but because that's the only time teachers didn't give any homeworks. I study better too.
Damn..... My english teacher is so gonna kill me. I need to write an essay about generation gaps and that kind of stuff but I have a mental breakdown yo! I'm not in the mood to write an essay today 'cause I know it won't be good and end up with plenty of grammar mistakes and stuff. I want to write something I can relate to. Thing is, I can't relate to ANYTHING for this  particular essay. My grands have all passed away. I don't even have any sweet or bitter memories with them. 'Cause I was way too young to know about their existence in this world. I'm like oblivious to their existence in this world because I was way too busy thinking about something. Specifically, thinking about myself. In fact, when I was only FOUR, I even questions my existence in this world. I started thinking about reincarnation and started touching my entire body and ask myself, ''am I really alive?''

OKAY..............
I know, I know.....................
This is crazy.
But, I'm not crazy.
So, I'm gonna end it here.
Good luck to me, eh?
Okay whatever.
Bye.


WAIT!

On a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILLY!!!!!
I love you FOREVER.

Mwahhh! Sleep tight honey ;)
☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮☮

Terrific

It's the second day of the MONTH. And, I'm feeling GREAT!(Y)

Okay......
So erm.................
I did pretty well for all my subjects(except physic. haha)


English-B3(17/25)---- errr. Okok.
Math-A2(28/40)------ There's no WORD that could express my happiness.
Malay-A2(34/48)------ I know, I know. I will get my A1 back!
Art-C6(51/100)------ My ART teacher said, ''You're SUPPOSED to fail''-.- And I was like, ''What does that SUPPOSED to mean?''-.-
Geography-A1(21/25)------ I'm sorry I brag a lot about this. But cut me some slack, people. IT'S MY FIRST TIME PASSING GEO.-.-
Social Studies-A1(26/30)---- There's two people who get 26/30. Meaning to say, there's two highest. lol.
Chemistry-C5(23/40)------- I thought I'm going to fail. THANKS to my FRIENDS(Fanna, Syaheeran, Syakirra, Syafiqah who told me not to give up.(Y)
Physic-F9!!!(16/45)----- EXPECTED


Overall, I'm VERY VERY happy.
Hmm.....
I hope yall did well for your examination.
If yes, KEEP IT UP!
If no, DON'T GIVE UP. This is NOT the end!

Okay....
Let's hope I can Keep It Up till O level okay?^^
LOVE YOU~~~~~~
Peace☮

At LAST

When I say, 'hell', you'll say 'yeah'.
'Hell!'
'YEAH!'
HELL YEAHHHH!
DOOM's DAYS ARE FINALLY OVER! I'm referring to those meaningless examination. I've been burning the midnight oil for the last 4 or 5 days. And, I've been sleep deprived too.
I hope all my hard work pays off. So far, I've passed three subjects. Five more to go......(Math, Chemistry, Art, English, Malay, Geography, Social Studies and Physic. In case some of you wonder, why I'm taking '8' subjects-.-)

Anyways,
I'm gonna flunk my physic paper BIG time.
I'm going to fail it. BADLY.
But, who cares? I kind of expected it ah.

Oh and, I went to sp's mcd just now. Spotted some familiar faces and had a random conversation with them.

Ok peace people.☮

3 DAYS AND COUNTING

4 DAYS.....
I've not been fasting for 4 DAYS- and counting.-.- I felt guity but I realised that being "guilty" of so many things are both natural and necessary for my mental growth - but I've come to conclusion that thoughts of this nature can now only lead to a degradation in mind.


If one is a mental slave to religion, then one is probably aware of it. If a man enjoys mee pork, who am I to judge that? This is because, they're experiencing it the way they want it too. If someone goes his whole life without truly understanding any process fully - including basic ones, like breathing, then it's not my place or anyone to say that's wrong. So, am I still feeling guity now? The answer is flat no. Wait. Don't get me wrong. I know, it's wrong. But then again, what's to stop me from living my entire life behind the wheel of a go-cart? That sounds like an interesting way to go through life.

ANYWAYS.......
Just wanna share with you people.
This is an AMAZING video. Whoever loves art, will totally understand why.






Peace☮
-Shay

Be my baby~~~

My BABIES!!!!!!!:D




I simply love his british accent!
''Aaaahaha. Ohuhu. Ouch. OUCH! Ouch, CHARLIE! OUCHHHHHHHHHHHH! Charlie!!! That really hurts!''
Be my babies will cha?
Love you boys((:

PEACE AYO~☮