Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you all.

Honestly, loud music are no longer my cup of tea. When I was younger, screamo and indie used to be my number 1 to rock and roll. Wait a second, 'younger'? How old am I again? Anyways, I'm not supposed to hear those music anymore. They are like so last year~*bitchy voice* Haha. But, sometimes, loud music is exactly what you need right now for your teenage soul(that's why the younger generation enjoys clubbing, while the older ones, spend most of their time at strip club. I'm just saying people....~). And, loud music aint that bad, after all. It did helped me calm down. You'know, sometimes, you just want to say this two words to the people around you. SHUT UP! Well, not really to the people around you, just a circle of idiotic people with a 5 year old brain. But, those words were like trapped or rather stuck on your throat. You couldn't even bring yourself to say those two simple words to that circle of people who pissed you off. You'know, those two words, are in fact, the nicest thing you could ever say to anyone, in a weird perspective of cause. It was only till now that I realised how sinful I was towards god, towards the people around me, who had been cursed at for no good reason. How I wished, those two simple words could have been a replacement for all those swearing words. Oh well. I'm just a human being afterall. I do make mistakes. And, I know. I will always be making mistakes along the way. You know why? 'cause I think, the best way for all of us to learn, is through mistakes. Because, through mistakes, we became a better and stronger individuals. Don't you think so? :))

Okay then.
I love you all.
EXCEPT THOSE STUPID MTF ARSEHOLES!  I won't be talking to you boys anymore. I swear upon my own blog.
PEACE☮
-Shay

Midnight

It's midnight right now. So, why am I still awake? Remember, I mentioned about the tons of homeworks I had today? Yes. I'm doing those homeworks right now. My essay is still in progress. Frankly speaking, I'm stuck. Haha. I don't know how to continue my essay.

Here goes....~
Wait, before that, let me first make it clear to you guys that I'm still trying to polish my english. Okay. So, my usage of english language is still pretty average. Oh and, my english teacher likes a local flavour story. So, you guys will be expecting some local places, local names in my unfinished essay.

It was 15th August 1925. The sun rose in a pool of crimson and gold, spilling light all over China Town street. Mr Tan sat before the new televison set he had bought a couple of months ago. His eyes were directed on the televison set as the lottery results were shown.
''Two, four, eight, nine and three, two, one, zero.'' Mr Tan threw up his hands in disgusted resignation at the mention of those numbers.
''No! Where is one, five, one, zero? That old man told me that number is going to win! Where is it, then?'' Mr Tan let his anger rise together with his voice. Disappointed, he switched off the television. Profanities and vulgarites were soon heard when Mr Tan finally realised he had been cheated by that old man.

Mr Tan took another look at the small piece of paper that was supposed to bring him luck. Enraged, he tore the paper into halves, crumpled them and pitched them into the basket.
''Chun Li! Chun Li! Where is my coffee?'' a loud booming voice startled Chun Li, who was busy preparing lunch for her family. After gathering enough courage, she carefully arranged her steps towards her husband and slowly put the cup of coffee on the table.
''What took you so long?'' Mr Tan asked, his eyes blazed murderously towards Chun Li. Intimidated by his angry glares, Chun Li lowered her head and looked away almost instantly.


I know..... It ain't that good and definitely, there's a room for improvement. So, is there any english god out there who can help me improve my english?
Hmm.
Okay then.
I need to start revising my physic.
Peace☮
-Shay

monday blues~

Monday blues.?
Ironically, today wasn't really as bad as I thought it would be. In fact, it was BETTER than what I had expected. Okay, yeah... It was a mundane school day, and I was late for school and everything but other than that, today was perfectly okay.  Oh and, I'm still alive! My english teacher didn't kill me. Having said that, I am now struggling with tons of homeworks that needed to be submitted by tomorrow. Hell yeah. GOOD LUCK TO ME! I kinda regret not finishing my homeworks and stuff. Besides english assignment, my english teacher being an english teacher also gave us extra homeworks! THANKS!:@
Okay....
Till then?
'Cause I need to finish up those homeworks and also get some sleep.

I love you all.
Peace☮
-Shay

Good luck to me.

Frankly speaking, I'm struggling right now. I just found my english assignment which was safely 'protected' by a sea of books and worksheets and all kinds of sheets and shits. Okay so, I am currently under  lots of pressure right now. Why? The dateline for my english assignment will be this freaking Monday, 28th. So, yea. Good luck to me, eh?  So, right now........... I'm generating ideas for my story. Trying to brainstorm every possible story plots, and guess what? I don't even know how to incorporate some of those ideas into my essay. Just one word, people. WTH. Or more properly said, What The Hell!!!!!

Well, I hope this post will be a lesson learnt to all of us.
I hope, this post has taught all of us a valuable life lessons.
'NEVER DO ANYTHING AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE.'

With that, I'll shut up and continue generating ideas for my story.
Love you people.

Peace☮
-Shay

BLANK

It was a silent night. Everything was quiet and peaceful. Except, her. She began uttering some prayers under her breath as her imagination started running wild. Coward. But, she was just a girl. Who was afraid of her own shadow. And that girl is me. Right now, I'm more afraid than I ever was. I'm like trapped in this warm silence, sweetly deafening and hideously dark room. It's freezing cold and it's already 3am in the morning. I  kept thinking and 'seeing' your shadow, awfully lingering and scaring me, till I get so scared I'd cry myself to sleep. Except, I couldn't. I felt so numb and afraid. Finally, I saw it. Staring at me. I kept my eyes shut but those revolting images kept appearing. After gathering enough courage, I finally opened my eyes again. And there she was! Right in front of me!



Okay........... in total boredom right now..... hahah. Oh and, in case, some of you people find my usage of english language is pretty bad, I have two words for you people. F*CK OFF! hahah. Nehh. I'm just kidding! Haha. I'd like to say, 'I'M SORRY!' actually. I'm still trying to polish my grammar and everything. Well, I'm still learning people! You can do me a favour, though. HELP ME! Talk to me in person, but if you're shy, text me at my number. If you don't have my number, then talk to me on MSN. If you're afraid I might ignore you or might know that you're actually secretly reading my blog, then you can just write it at my tagboard, using ANONYMOUS or NAMELESS or anything(be creative! haha), as your name. Simple! If not............... Then, F*CK OFF. Haha. I mean, seriously. No point reading my blog, if you don't enjoy it at all, right? I just need some constructive comments to improve my english. I LOVE ENGLISH! I hope my english teacher reads my blog. She will be....... smiling happily! :))

Alright.
Love you people.
Peace☮☮
-Shay

Intermittent

You know when you're all calm and collected and happy, but then there's this corner in your heart that cripples away with elicit? THAT's the kind of feeling I definitely despise.
It crumbles the day down.
No, it crumbles EVERYTHING down.
I've managed to live, normally, smiling, talking, exploring, laughing even. But then there's this empty reluctance to do ANYTHING at all. I don't know, its an incognito. It's annoying, at the same time remarkably amusing.
These are the times you press your forehead to your window, trying to see. You stare blankly, hopefully an answer crosses your eyes, so you could see it all. A week of doing so, and the answers took me into another dimension. Where everything moves synchronizedly slow, sucking souls. I am not alone, but I realised it's better not to know.
Sometimes............
It's better not to know..........
Don't you think so? :)


Okay.
Peace☮
I love you all.
-Shay

loveless again

Even the petal doesn't want to give you another chance. Shay Shay Shay~~

DONT GIVE UP THE WHOLE FOREST JUST BECAUSE OF ONE TREE.
I find this hilariously funny, yet very meaningful.

Okay.
 Peace.☮
-Shay

PERFECT DAY

My obsession with eye liner is back!

Regret is the worst feeling felt. One is left in exasperation, and there is simply no turning back. I'm sure you've felt regret before. I feel it all the time.
But you know, come to think of it, I really enjoy this feelings. At least I feel something. The heart falling to the stomach in every disappointment. The heat coming onto the face whilst holding back a tear. The surge of excitement on every text message. The gushing blood when someone holds my hand way too tight. The goosebumps when one looks at me and flies me a kiss.
Well...... Today was a completely different story okay. I didn't enjoy it. At all. In fact, it wasn't that great. Not even close! I went out with my mum(yeap, my mum) and my future sister-in-law to the beach. Seriously........ I don't wish to elaborate much about it. It SUCKS. That's all I will say.


Things looked good from afar,

but now things are far from looking good.

Peace☮
-Shay

L.O.V.E

Peace☮
-Shay

Today was fun! I went out with my buddy to catch The Karate Kid! It was awesome, man! It's so cool when Kungfu and our daily activities, even the mundane stuff, are some how related. Such as putting on your jacket, taking it off and so on. I don't know how to put it in words. It's beyond comprehension! I guess the only way for you to understand it..........is to WATCH IT yourself!

I'm so in love with Jaden Smith! He's such a darling!(aaaaaaaaah~)
Afterwards, I requested to go to the Woodland Waterfront. My buddy hesitate at first..... But, I did this puppy face thing and to cut the story short.....  We went to the Woodland Waterfront.

 Haha.Beautiful isn't it? And, it's not really that far from my house! Haha.... And, it was my first time going there. Oh what the hell?

Yaye! That's me! Candid picture! Haha. But, I don't look that bad........right? Erm........ I looked really bad........ Haha.

Hahaahah. Idiots. The two idiots. My buddy looks so gay. I think he is............. Hmm.... Hahah.:)

Alright..........
That's all people!
Peace~☮
-Shay
Ps; I didn't do the puppy face thing.......
Instead, I did it my way........ Kick his ass!

You know, if there's anyone I'd date right now..........
It'd be her.

Ellen Degeneres.

Apparently, I can't......
Just one word. Kay, make it two words.
SHE'S TAKEN!

Portia De Rossi must be a very lucky girl~
Hahah. Don't get me wrong. I love boys. In fact, I still do.... But..... Then again......... When everything seems to fall apart, dating a girl isn't really a bad idea.
Don't you think so?:))




Peace☮
-Shay

Yes...... A wish.

I wish................the wish I had wished came true.(Haha. Serious.)

I want to bottle this feeling.-This happy, overwhelming great feeling. Knowing somebody cares and loves. This sentiment doesnt come often in life, so time to cherish it.




Perm hair!!!!!! Hahaha. I'm so in love with her man! Oh yea. I'm bisexual. Why? Any problem with that? Hee^^
Oh yea...... My dearest FARHANA edited my pictures! Haha. She's damn random sey. But thanks anyway. Haha. Okay. Here goes my pictures~

Arz Shay~

Better than original right? Haha. Man.I love my eyes. Haha.>.< (Credits goes to FARHANA!!)

Oh well.......
I was staring at the ceiling and thought, what if one day, we've gotten everything we wanted, and dreamt of, have the money, have the food on the table, the everything.. what would we be then? will we turn to nothing?
Evaporate into thin air and eventually be just dust in the wind that has accomplished its goal in fulfilling its own goals.
What're we going to do when we have it all?-Nothing to appreciate anymore. Sometimes, I think nothing really matters. We all live, and then die in the end. but as the saying goes;

born to blossom, bloom to perish.

Which also means we will somewhat get to the peak of our lives, and die out. But we can't live so perfectly like some flower blooming away and wilting beautifully. We have errors too. I realised I've made lots of mistakes in life, but doesn't everybody?
One more chance............ Please?

Okay........
Good day everybody.

Peace.☮
-Shay

I woke up feeling swollen.




Swollen eyes.
And swollen heart.




☮Peace☮

Hopeless Soul

Hopeless Soul.

These two words, Loveless and Lifeless. Actually.... kind of. goes hand in hand. Don't you think so? :))


Anyways..... Yesterday. Webcam session with Haziq.-.- He's going to be 18 years old soon but he acted like..........erm.....  Well. Just. See for yourself.

I looked so ugly here:(

Haha. He's cute? nehh. Shay cuter(uglier. haha. Actually. Just ugly. without the 'er' ) But.... He's a nice brother though:))) Oh and.... girls..... He's available. Anyone? Haha.(Just joking Haziq)


(aaaaaaahh~)

The difference between loving someone and being in love with someone is vast.
Now, the question is, which applies?

Goodbye my hopeless dream.
PEACE☮
-Shay

Aloha!

ALOHA!

Haha. Hmm....... It's kinda strange how I still managed to laugh and be happy about when the truth isn't really like that.

ANYWAYS..............
Last night was horrible. No no. Not referring about the outing I had with my dear friend. It's right after that particular outing, when I had safely reached home. Skin allergy attack is back! Being me as usual, I would always pray to god hoping he would just take me with him and just end this pain and misery I had to endure. It was damn painful. I was so helpless that all I could do was crying endlessly. God obviously didn't answer my prayers but instead, god is being very kind towards me as he didn't really let me suffer that much. He brought something that could ease all the pain away. And that's DISTRACTION.

And so..... I was instant messaging three wonderful girls(my old friends) and of cause an awesome guy name Marcel. I miss those three wonderful girls and yes girls. Marcel is a very nice guy. He's damn tall. 193cm! haha. Very charming and has a good sense of humour. He's not mine but he's really2 kind. And I'm so sorry Marcel...... Haha. The girls want to see your picture! Haha. Okay...... There he is!



MARCEL



Danke für ein so guter Freund.(hope you understand. haha.)

Peace☮
-Shay

Went out today. FINALLY! haha. Went out with ADILLAH!

Damn FUN! We watched KILLERS! You guys should really watch this movie! It's worth every single cent of your money! Like seriously!

Overall, it's a GREAT movie! The girl's damn cute and ASHTON KUTCHER is mine! Okay.. Moving on..... Haha. The both of us went to town for ermm..........fun?(righhhhhtt)
So erm....... Didn't take any pictures........... I was hoping we did but Adillah is kindof camera shy(but she is good at taking BEAUTIFUL pictures!-irony?) And so......... Here are my pictures! Haha! Well, just reached home and quickly cam-whore using laptop's webby.(pathetic much?)



Slut face!(hahah)---->

Closer look of the dress.-.-
So......... I  wore this leather jacket(which my dearest brother's gf bought it for him. Unfortunately, it's too small for him... So.... I gt to keep it! Haha.) And a lovely dress. I want to go for this masculine-feminine kind of look but doesn't really look good. Hah!
Okay readers, that's all! Hahah. Enjoy~

It's easier to get out of the pond,


 than from the ocean. Easier said than done.


Peace☮
-Shay

Just not the right pieces of puzzle.

-Shay☮

My FOREVER love

BILLY

''Have you ever felt such deep passion over something that can't even communicate to you verbally?''
The answer is YES. I had nothing to do today, so my mind kept me busy. I was thinking and reciting back all memories I had with Billy. My big fat cat.


She's NOT an average cat(hell yeah. it's a 'she' not a 'he'). On days when I'd wake up late in the morning, she'd gently bite my cheek or lick my eyes to wake me up(Please, dont go eww. ). She's very very sweet. I was thinking, what'd happen to me when she leaves? I mean. She's a cat with a lifespan of approximately 15 years ONLY. I can't bare that! I can't bare waking up all alone, no little nose-rubbings and purring in my ears. FYI, she's 10 years old NOW! Yeap, 10 years old! Which means...............

Aaaaaaahhhh~
Let's just end this post, shall we?

Peace☮
-Shay

Oh~~ girls~ They wanna have fun~

Hahah. Anyways............. Any of you can play this game.....
It's fun!

Piano

Click here to play this game

-Shay☮

ME!!!

THE JERK!




THE BLURR




THE EVERGREEN





I know...... I looked kinda dark. Anws......... There are a wide variety of people here. The jerks, blurr, evergreen, of cause-The horny bastard.......
But.... If you are verylucky, you will meet 'THE NICE GUY'.
'Cause..... I've met some. Different size, age. Haha.

-Shay☮

Okay. This post is kinda....lame. Hahaa. Enjoy.
The photo snap thingy is kinda addictive.

Incase some of you ask, that thing behind me is NOT a teddy bear! Hahah.It's my cat!

Okay, so today.... I'm stuck at home doing nothing. Neh......... I did a lot of things. Well, at home that is. Y'wanna know? See below! Hahah. Chatting with a complete stranger is so addictive!

Hmm.Yo kids! Please! Please don't try this at home! Seriously! They are so damn fucking horny! Almost all of them are doing that thg. Y'know, whanking. Gosh. But, some of them are kinda nice ah. *SOME OF THEM only.
Okay.
That's all!
hahah.
Peace☮
-Shay

Peace Everybody☮☮☮☮

And so sheds another tear. See, this is why I say today will never be better than yesterday. And guess what, tomorrow will always endup worst.
But, then again, who cares? I'll worry about that tomorrow.
Sigh.... Nothing goes well anymore. It's all crumbling to dust. Again, who the fuck cares about all this shitty yadaa-yadaas? Well, unfortunately, I do. There are two possibilities to all this. It's either God is being unfair to me, or maybe it's just me. Putting the blames on other people, when it's actually my fault. Wells, either way it cuts like a blade-penetrates through the skin, penetrates through the mind. Tsk. I don't know how to put it in words. It's beyond comprehension. Oh god please, make something of me. It hurts me deeply, to know that I'm the cause of all this jinx. Well, recently-today, someone, somebody, lost his phone. And guess what, I'm the last person who text him. God...... Why me? This guilt is like killing me, not literally ofcause. BUT it's killing me INSIDE!

-Shay☮☮

What about me thn?
Hmm......-Shay☮